Monday, November 06, 2006

Blockage

Arriving and getting settled in a new city is always a daunting task, but my normal “adjustment-funk” is just a bit harder to shake this time than on past trips. Again, part of the reason is that I was expecting Jeremy to join me shortly after I arrived here for a two to three week period, and those plans have been disrupted. The other part of the reason is that we staged most of my scenes in the first three days of the rehearsal period, and now I have been free of a schedule for the past five days. Unstructured time scares me.

I am grateful that I have a roommate here in LA (and therefore have someone to come home to) – my friend Levi, who is one of my colleagues in the production. I am also grateful that my brother and his girlfriend have also recently moved down here. It’s especially nice, because my brother and I seem to growing out of our childhood sibling rivalries as we grow into our adulthood, and it is a nice opportunity to get closer to him and his girlfriend (whom I like very much). Randomly, I am also grateful for the fact that my high school had a reunion in Huntington Beach the other night – it was a small affair, but it was a nice excuse to go for a drive and catch up with some teachers and classmates that I have not seen in a while (and, no, I did not grow up in the LA area, my school just does these "cluster" things from time to time since so many people move away – many people have asked me that when I tell them about the reunion).

While at the reunion, my high school director, Jim, informed me with his usual bluntness that I “need to update (my) blog more often”. So here I am, rambling away and trying to catch you all up on my life. I’ll admit, I have felt quite blocked lately, and I’m not sure why. I’m avoiding projects and practice like a madman and occupying my time feeling lonely and sorry for myself. They say that the best cure for a block is to simply (as Julia Cameron puts it) “show up at the page”. I figure if I list some things to be grateful for and just write something down, it will help me get out of my little funk and step back into the creative flow. We’ll see. In the meantime, I apologize for the lack of profundity and focus in this post, and I thank you, Jim, for giving me the kick in the ass that I need.


(the photo above is of me from my debut in Frankfurt - the photo is by Monika Rittershaus)

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I like you very much too. Both you & Jeremy. =) I hope we can brighten up your stay in LA at least a little bit.

Anonymous said...

Yay for growing up! I'm looking forward to us getting closer like we should have been over the years. I'm sorry for all the insults and bickering while we were younger. We're here to hang out with anytime! And we'll miss Jeremy too.

Paul G. McCurdy said...

Lovely photo -- found you through ACB at The Concert. Will keep reading!

Janet Pascal said...

I also came here via ACB and have been enjoying your vivid and open picture of the emotional underlay of a singer's life. When I finished reading, I went to your official page and discovered who you actually are.
I keep a little list of singers I watch for, so I can be absolutely sure to seize any chance that comes to hear them again. I heard you singing Damon at City Opera, one of the most appealing performances I've heard in a long time, and you immediately went on my list. (So I guess I'll be going to the NY Festival of Song in May.)Good luck in LA.

nick said...

Many thanks for the kind words, Janet!