Monday, February 04, 2008

Downshifting

I was woken up this morning by the car horns blaring outside.

I did the requisite morning pages, and then Jeremy made me a welcome home breakfast, which was sweet. After, he hopped in the shower and got ready to rush off to work. I sat on the couch and began to check email, continuing the ritual I go through every day. Jeremy then gave me a quick kiss goodbye and rushed out the door for a day of coachings. I watched him go, and then proceeded to start unpacking my suitcases full of the last four months-worth of my stuff.

Then I sat down, unsure of what to do.

At the beginning of October, which feels like forever ago, I was freaked out about being away and alone for so long. My therapist told me that it would all be ok - it was just a time that I needed to focus on my work. Now, I guess, is the time my focus has to shift back to a more balanced place - to my relationship with Jeremy, to my home, to my friends in New York, to getting re-settled into this city.

Today, I am finding this shift pretty overwhelming. I find myself struggling to find the answer to the question: After being away for so long, how do I be at home?

1 comment:

Timmer said...

Just be with it, my friend. Glad to have you back in New York.
Tim

PS: did you mean to include the f in shift?